Scatterbrain

So a guy high school friend told me:

(On the girl he likes)

“Posible pala yun. Yung buong araw mo siya kasama. Buong araw mo hawak kamay niya. Halos kalahating araw mo siya yakap. Tapos titingin ka sa kanya. Tapos kikiligin ka pa rin.”

HAHAHA SO CUTE. Guys are so cute when they talk about the girls they like. This made my day. =))

It’s Day 2 of my 3-week “senior hell month”.

I greeted the sun again with eyes that barely had rest for the past three days. I was about to complain of this extreme lack of sleep I’ve been putting myself into, when the familiar chirping of the birds awakened my senses.

It’s a beautiful sunrise. The sky-rise buildings which were dimly but beautifully lit last night, now basked its marble white walls in the sun. The cool morning breeze was accompanied with the smell of freshly baked pandesal, dried fish and fried bacon.

I could get used to this scenery. Everything seemed so peaceful from this side of my universe. It was just yesterday when my orgmate discovered this spot in our house. The terrace boasted a view of the buildings along Timog Ave. and a vast sky that turned from pastel blue, to a dramatic shade of pink and orange at sunset, and to ebony black at night. Everything was peaceful except for the occasional rumble of jeepneys and motorcycles.

These are the things I take for granted because of this busy lifestyle. Come to think of it, I’ve only had an hour’s sleep and it doesn’t seem like I’m getting anything more than that in the coming days.

I’m getting used to it.

If this was the scenery I’d open my eyes to everyday, I’d probably wish I had more time to stay awake to appreciate its beauty.

It’s a beautiful day today. It certainly won’t be easy and carefree, but the way the sun shined at me today told me I should enjoy it. 

Hello sunshine, may you give me all the energy I need to get through this day with an hour’s sleep.

The sun peeked in from the clouds again, smiled at my tired, sleepy eyes. The cool breeze of the morning swished against my droopy face. Birds chirped in choruses and rhymes - a beautiful melody that told me I was about to face a new day ahead without even a minute of sleep once more.

Your voice had its own lovely melody too. The way you woke me up with its smoothness and gentle sweetness - it was perfect. It sent wonderful tingling sensations to my ears, telling me I would be safe, assuring me this would be a good day, whispering songs of love and care.

It always reminded me to keep living despite all the challenges. To keep wishing despite all the heartaches. To keep going despite the failures. Because through living, I would find my way to you.

I’ll keep going. I promise.

And when the right time comes, we’d cross pathways and talk as if we’ve known each other for years.

When that time comes, I’d know that I won’t be greeting the sunrise alone anymore.

And you’d be here to stay, fighting all my fears away.